Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Ouchies


Danica and Ashton are always worried about ouchies... well I got one! I actually have a few on my foot it hurts so badly I can't even begin to explain it.
I was on my scooter and then I wasn't then I was on the ground with people trying to help me but the help wasn't there. I was pinned under the scoot right foot completely smashed and a couple came rushing back to me. They didn't speak any English and the man put his foot on the scooter! Smashing my foot further into the ground, and his wife had me in a bear hug and was trying to pick me up. I just kept screaming the bike the bike THE BIKE!! and finally some man came running yelling in spanish to pick up the bike.
Then he picked me up! I was covered in blood and a huge piece of my big toe was missing just gone... he offered to take me to the ER and I accepted. I couldn't take myself I could barely walk.
I sobbed in the back of the car while his wife talked about how lucky I was that I had on my hemlet... no not helmet hemlet... I was very lucky that I had enough sense to wear it.
I was gushing blood out of my toe which I think is now infected but I couldn't even bare the pain it hurt so much.
I called my mother and Darrell my Utah dad and he came to the hospital to tell me to be a man and suck it up. I tried but I have never cried so hard. I would post some pics but I am too lazy to go get the camera from my room.
I have never spent so much time in the hospital and I don't recommend it to anyone it really isn't all that fun. I am glad that I didn't lose a toe that could have easily been the case but I didn't and I am thankful. I am sorry to worry everyone. I am going to go finish off the pain killers that were prescribed and go to bed I have a long day ahead of me but I look forward to it.
Good luck to those who continue to scoot... it hasn't been that good to me so I think I will wait until i heal... I don't want to but it is probably for the best! :(

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Truthing...

So I had a great weekend still have one day left well most of a day and I am enjoying it.
Went to Kira and Rogers! London has gotten so big! It was so good to see them and know that they are doing well. They are moving to IF which is really exciting. It will be good to be able to see them when I go home, rather than stopping in Pocatello.
I start a new job tomorrow I am excited I have never been so excited to do something so out of the norm for me. I got to go to church this morning that was really good. Julie is fantastic it was nice to just sit and listen. I also saw Ms. Mary I love her so much it was nice to catch up a bit with her before I scooted away. I need to go and get my new phone changed over I fell on the other yesterday and shattered the front which is okay cause I hated it but a little sad that I won't have a red phone anymore. Oh well... life goes on that is what I have to keep telling myself life goes on and things will work themselves out.
I better run need to hit the verizion store before it gets busy and then I think I am going to nap I don't want to do anything today but hang out nap and yeah nap!
I am really glad to be back and I hope that today will be a good one it has started out well and I am just going to keep that feeling going. I hope that I get to go spend some time with Olyea! It feels like forever since we got to just hang out! I miss her a great deal and am going to make time today for coffee or something
And I am going to fast for the next ten days... I feel like it would do me some good to not eat during the day only water and maybe diet coke maybe. I don't know I think that I am in need of refocus... It can go nowhere but up from here!!
Hooray!!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Who are you to wave your finger you practically raised the dead...

I am in love with my new life... I am trying really hard to not get down! Lots of things have changed and it has been a struggle the last few weeks. I have come and gone with Jared, which was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. I really hope that Jeffy gets my old job he is the only one in the store qualified.
I have a new job well 2 new jobs I start the most exciting one on Monday.
I crashed my scoot, fell off at least I have to monster bruises!! It hurt so bad! And I ruined Lunaberry for myself. I don't think I can go there anymore. It hurt too badly for me to even think of how yummy it is.
I do need to get in the shower so I can go to Michelle's and see the babies! I really need to go hang out with her in my flip flops and Olyea's dress... Yes I wore it last night but I am going to wear it again today because I don't want to even think about getting the stuff out of the car. It is too much work and I don't want to think about it.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Are you Married or Gay???


It seems like if I am even a little bit interested in someone they are either married or gay? WTF??

I don't understand?? I am starting to feel like I am that girl that once you date me you find your true love. It is really putting a damper on my social life, or the lack of social life lately.

I want to buy a home so I can have some stability but I want someone to share said home with. I also don't want all the baggage of a previous or current marriage or gayness... It really sucks!

I am totally struggling with the fact that I might be a cat lady, well in my case a dog or bird lady but an animal lady none the less.

I am going in the morning to put an offer on a townhouse and I am stuck in this feel bad for myself mode. We interviewed someone today for a front office position and he is so cute but I am sure that because I am attracted to him he is going to be either engaged, married, or dun dun dun GAY!!

It must be my lot in life to be sad and alone! Even though I am neither right now I am still bugged that my world is not turning out how I want it to, I thought by 26 I would be married myself and maybe have a kid or two. But no! I have a dog that is in Idaho and I live in a room that used to be a garage!

Oh well it could be much worse I could be jobless... right now I have 2 of those, carless... I have a car and a scooter and really alone. I am not I have alot of people in my life that want to be there. So I am going to stop bitching and get back to work even though I don't know what I am supposed to be doing given that no one has told me what is expected today .

I love my life it is good... a little odd but good for the most part.

I don't have a black heart but I do have black lungs

Last weekend I ended up in the hospital and then in Idaho with my family.
I wasn't feeling well and I couldn't breathe so I called my mom and told her how I was feeling and it seemed like I had an apendicitis or maybe a serious kidney infection. But it was neither, once the Dr. took a chest x-ray it was obvious that I had a bad case of pnemonia. I am really glad that I didn't have to have surgery but I am still struggling to breathe.
I don't like that at all!!
But I do need to get some work done so I will blog again later.