I can't wait for the holidays to be over.

I have really struggled with the Holidays this year, Christmas sucked I had hives and no money and I couldn't get anything for my friends and family for Christmas. I don't know what I am going to be able to do for New Years I don't know that I will make it to SLC because I am completely broke.
I need to decide what the hell I am going to do with my life. I need to either go full bore on the Insurance job which should pick up alot in the early months of 2008 or find something else to do. I am really struggling with which way I should go. I have teetered between finding something new or sticking with this. The company just did a big homecoming yay hooray meeting and they are doing a lot for the agents. I can see how this is one of the best companies to work for in a lot of ways but I am just not working as hard as I should be. So I lean from on side of the spectrum of wanting to just kick ass and do this to yikes what the hell am I doing I need to just jump ship and do something else.
Today I am feeling better about it I feel like I can succeed but it changes from day to day. I have my resume out there and I am not going to turn away from anything that comes my way. I do hope that I can do something different whether it be doing well at the job I have now or doing something completly different. I do really want to get back to Utah within the next year and so I need to decide. Ugg!!

Christmas Christmas time is here... time for fun and time for cheer...

So I have been really bah humbug this year I just don't really care that much about the season. It is the 23rd and I have yet to get any gifts. I guess that I have gotten gifts for my friend Michelle and for the new boyfriendish guy but other than that I have done nothing. Usually I am so pumped on the idea of getting stuff for people I know alot of it is because I haven't been making alot of money and I haven't been able to buy like I usually do.
I have thought of a really great alternative to getting expensive gifts, not like I usually get expensive gifts but I am that poor that I can't even get inexpensive gifts. So here is my thought... Christmas is about surprize and hope and fun and so I am going to get everyone on my list a lotto ticket a scratch ticket... They have the seasonal ones like with rudolph and snowmen and all of that so the people on my list could get either a really really good present or a dirty coin and smashed hopes and dreams... haha!!
I think that it will be fun. I am hope that everyone likes it and understands that Christmas gifts aren't going to be that great (and not what it is about) but maybe birthday gifts will be great!

I am a helper....

So I helped Michelle with her Mall Santa's Pj party. I wrote about it a little yesterday. I voulenteered to help just keep the kids where they were supposed to be and to get the gift card that came with the gig.... haha...

Well what I didn't know was that I was going to be an Elf. I wasn't told until the day of that I was going to be in an Elf costume with Michelle. I guess that it was okay. It was really funny the reations that it got from people. We had to walk through out the mall right before to get everything ready and it was funny to hear the things that people would say. There were alot of little kids who thought it was fantastic and a lot of people who just said. "Oh gawd" too funny.

It was a hectic party because the craft that they picked online was way too hard given the age of the children and the time constraints. So covered in glue and watching tears start to well in childrens eyes because they couldn't get their foam gingerbread houses to stay up I made an executive decision to get rid of the craft let the kids take it home and have 2 coloring stations. which was fine.

I don't know that I would do it again but it was fun! Anastasia and Rita came which was nice and at least it gave me something to do.

Santa's PJ Party

So Michelle talked me into helping her with her Mall Santa's Pj party which is a night with Santa reading you a story and crafts and all of the proceeds go to Charity.
I would do anything for Michelle so I offered to help and she didn't let me know until the day of that I was going to be in an Elf Costume. It was pretty funny. We were the hottest elves ever! haha!! I will post some pictures and the details soon... I was just excited that I can blog on here again!

I am back

So I was kicked off this blog for a few days because blogger thought I was a spam blog! Ugg... But I am back so now I can blog again with the best of them! HOORAY!!!

Finally!!

So I finally made a sale in Idaho... It was the first appointment that I set and also the first sale I have made. I did need a little help from one of the guys here because I haven't ever sold this product before but HOORAY!! I don 't have to have my little brother break my arm so I can get the $500 benefit from the Alliance for Affordable Services! I am so thankful for that. It wasn't a very big sale but it was a start. I am glad to see that it is as easy as in Utah it is just a matter of getting the appointments set.
So I need to get back in business and on the phone so I can make some more!! I just need to perk up a little I have gone back to my throwing up everyday lifestyle. The unintentional belimia is starting to get me down.... and when I mean down I mean like can't get out of bed because I feel so gross... UGG!!
I don't like it not one bit!!

I hate winter

I decided this afternoon that I would do a good thing and shovel the snow that came this morning and last night so that my sister or my dad didn't have to do it... Yikes that was a bad idea... my parents have a huge huge huge driveway and it took forever. Now my whole body is achy. here are some pics of my good deed.. That is only half of the driveway I also did the walk in front of the house... WOWEY WOW WOW!! We need a snowblower!

Internet craziness

I have been more into surfing the internet as of late because I haven't had much to do and I joined some so called "christian" dating website because a) it was free and b) I was bored. More reason from B then A but I have had some crazy people who won't leave me alone. Granted I understand that I have some cute pictures and that is the point people look at pictures and then want to chat. But I have had some real weirdos that want to talk to me. Some dude from China wants to be my husband and wanted to buy me a plane ticket to go see him. NO THANKS!! I am not a mail order bride. UGG... I also had some crazy person email me about his requirements of what a wife should do in bed. Weird just plain weird. What person sends an email to a complete stranger about the sexual positions they think that are a prerequisite to marriage? Some weird looking dude from California is who!
I am not into it. So I deleted my account I just didn't want to get the emails that I had a message from so and so and they want to add me as a friend on Faithbase.com or that I had a message. At first it was amusing to see what people had to say... now it is boring and lame. I did talk to some really interesting people but none that I would want to continue talking to online. Weird weird weird!!
So I won't find love via the internet... too bad...

I love love love Project Runway

I can't sleep so I am watching TV and I love project runway it just keeps getting better and better. I got addicted the first season and then they had Santino and I am loving this season too.. You can't beat that Heidi Klum and Michael Kors. and I love that Tim Gunn..

MAKE IT WORK!

Momma's Birthday

Today was my mom's birthday it was pretty fun. Very low key, we had a good time. We didn't do the normal Buchanan style b-day celebration. We didn't have birthday manwich we had spagetti but we did have German chocolate cake so that is good...

The secondary Buchanan's came down to wish Mom a happy b-day it was good to see them so I did get some pics. This is a really cute picture of Anastacia and my mom...

Jared also hung out with the birds they love him... I had to catch birds today 3 of them got out this morning and I had to catch them. I was glad that it wasn't the mean cockatiels I wouldn't have been able to handle that... I like the birds okay but I would have a really hard time being okay with them if they bit me... Anastacia held a bird tonight too... she kept saying "I always wanted to hold a bird"

I wish that I would have felt better but all and all it was a good birthday for my mom.

It's an addiction.

So I have decided that I am addicted to hats. I haven't done my hair in like 3 days I have just put a hat on. I have found another hat that I need to purchase as well. It is at this cute little boutique by the movie theaters. I think it is going to be on my Christmas list.

I also need to find some flat shoes. When I lived in Idaho all I wore was heels and it seems like all of the people that I hang out with here are really short. All of the guys that I work with are either barely as tall as me or shorter... which is odd. I am used to hanging out with freakishly tall men and even the ones that weren't 6.4+ were at least 6 foot so the heels were okay.

Not in Idaho... I think there is something in the water, people are just smaller here...

Oh well.

The new guys at work are so much fun. I went out with them on Friday night. We went to DB's which is this little hole in the wall bar... DB's is short for Debbies Brother Yikes! an odd crowd hangs out there. But the guys from work are really really fun. They are addicted to Golden T golf. It is this ridiculous video game that you put a credit card in and you can track your progress in whatever city you are in. So New Boss man who is totally a step up from the old one is a Card Carrying Golden T player... he literally has a card with his name on it that keeps all of his points and progress and he gets to buy different things with his points like new outfits and stuff. Completely hilarious. Well we hung out at DB's for a long time and I drank way too much cause that is what I do... I broke my 40 some odd days of sobority.... oh well... it was a lot of fun. I haven't been able to stop puking since saturday morning but I think that is just stress cause a hang over doesn't last for two days! haha

Matchmaker, matchmaker make me a match

So I have been on more dates in the 2 weeks I have been in Idaho then the last 3 months in Utah. I have a friend here who has decided that I really really need a boyfriend and she is bound and determined that she is going to find my soulmate.
But my soulmate has not been found. So date number one... Mr F. well I wasn't set up with him but he was the first of the daters. He is very nice and he took me to dinner at a mexican resturant and then we watched a movie. In retrospect it was an okay date but like I always do I end up picking guys with baggage... and not louis vutton baggage that I would be okay with taking on. No garbage bags and a backpack full of DUI and no job and suspended licenses. Oh well, at least it was an okay date even though I had to drive and pay for the movie! haha
Come on date number 2... okay... so Guy from the bank, he is super nice and very cute but the problem is he is only 5.5 which is a deal breaker for me given that I am 5.7 with no shoes and I almost always wear 3 inch heels. So I was towering over him! It was a good date too besides feeling like a giant. Umm we went to dinner with some friends at Friday's and then played mini golf which I am terrible at but it was still alot of fun. But alas, a soulmate was not found...
But don't give up on me yet there was another date...
Dater number 3... This guy works at the mall.. he is very nice taller than number 2 but still legal troubles like number 1... we just went to coffee. It is a very small world and we actually got our tattoos by the same guy in Salt Lake so we had a lot to talk about but he is just not my type. Negatives... He is younger than me for some reason that just freaks me out. He is in legal trouble which is not a deal breaker but I am trying to steer away from that. He is really really thin, I can't handle dating someone who has a smaller waist size than I do. I just can't.
I know that I sound really really vain but I guess that size does matter... haha not in the dirty way but you can't be smaller than me... I don't like feeling like a beast and if you have a 28 inch waist or only stand 5.5 I just don't think that it will ever work out.
Oh well I am sure the man of my dreams is out there and M is going to find him! haha!!

I am going to try this again

So I have tried to post on this before and couldn't get it to work but I am going to attempt it again. All for the dearest of dear friends Emily. So lets try it on for size.
Today is the kids Christmas program at The Church of the Nazarine. I am missing it, I don't get to see the little Zeil children sing or Anastacia I am just not feeling well. I am back to the craziness of throwing up everyday I think it is just the stress of life and the job and not knowing what to do but I am really looking forward to the new week so I can really get going here in Idaho.
Today is my momma's birthday. I think we are celebrating in the Buchanan way by having the "Birthday Manwich and German Chocolate cake" I can't wait even though I worry about it staying down I am still looking forward to it. Happy Birthday Mom!